I don’t like sickness. Period and complete stop.
I have lived most of my life in a terrible fear of germs, disease and illness. I used to wash my hands so much that they would crack and bleed. I would get the water as hot as I could stand it and would submerge my hands for as long as the heat would allow. (I have gotten a lot better about that, though.) Those little hand sanitizers that they have in public places are like magnets to me. (A couple weeks ago we went to a science museum….I used that sanitizer at least five times). Being sick scares me (though not nearly as much as it used did in the past).
With the news about the coronavirus, I know that there is a ton of fear and uneasiness going around. Viruses like that are terrifying and I don’t blame anyone for being scared. The real question, though, is what are we going to do with our fear? Are we going to barricade ourselves in our houses and avoid interaction with anyone for a few years? Are we going to let our fear consume us? It is so easy to let our fears define and take over our lives.
That isn’t the way it is supposed to be. Believe me, I know a ton about fear. In fact, I have lived most of my life severely paranoid about a myriad of things. The more I let fear control me, the more afraid I become. I’ve been realizing, that it is only when I take those fears to God, that He helps me carry them. They don’t go away automatically. But each day that I choose to let God take my fears, and choose to believe Him and His word, the less afraid I become and the more my faith grows.
I love this quote from Corrie Ten Boom, “Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows; it empties today of its strength.” Worrying about things that we cannot control doesn’t help anything. It breaks us down emotionally and physically. Living worry-free can seem impossible sometimes, but take some small steps towards it every day.
The coronavirus doesn’t surprise Him or scare Him. Before the world was even made, He knew that this would happen. He is allowing it to happen. So….I’ll take a deep breath, open my clenched hands and try to trust that God knows what He’s doing, even when I don’t understand it.