December was a busy month full of celebrating and tears and stress and enjoyment. Beautiful sentence, I know. I've been tired lately and somehow the energy to rewrite that just escapes me. It was actually a really hard month for me in a lot of ways. It's strange how a month can be both really … Continue reading Random Life Update: December 2022 Christmas, Hanukkah, Oh My!
Swimming In Red Salt: Beauty & Pain
We live close(ish) to the Great Salt Lake. So, of course, we decided that we needed the experience of swimming in it. One bright Saturday morning it was THE day. We woke up tragically late, ate breakfast with extreme slowness, pulled on our clothes with the speed of a snail and finally made it out … Continue reading Swimming In Red Salt: Beauty & Pain
A Poem for Thomas
We mourn the loss of a friend to suicide. I don't have words at the moment, but my friend Kaley has written a beautiful poem on her blog and has given me permission to share it here as well. Please be in prayer for Thomas's family and for all of those who miss him. 💔 … Continue reading A Poem for Thomas
Will You stay?
He catches my downcast gaze and whispers, “I promise you, I won’t leave you.” I look away and wrap my arms around my knees. “I don’t believe you.” “I love you!” He says passionately. “Isn’t that enough?” “You’ll leave me.” I fly from him, leaving him to wonder what goes on inside of my fickle … Continue reading Will You stay?
Why It’s Ok To Ask Why
For a very long time, I was under the impression that if I asked “why” or “how long” or if I was sad or angry about something that happened in life, then I was a terrible Christian. Because “good” Christians aren’t supposed to wonder why bad things happen. They’re just supposed to suck it up, … Continue reading Why It’s Ok To Ask Why
Wishing For Words
More often than not, I feel really helpless. I look around me and see so much pain painted everywhere. I see it in the eyes of strangers that pass me in the store. I feel it in the downcast gaze or the lack of words from a family member. I hear it booming through unspoken … Continue reading Wishing For Words
2020 – My New Year’s Hope
I was curled up in the basement closet, my earphones playing Anchor over and over again. Tears were spilling out of my eyes way too fast and the empty ache in my heart only grew more and more by the second. I was hiding, hoping that no one would ever find me because I couldn’t … Continue reading 2020 – My New Year’s Hope