He catches my downcast gaze and whispers, “I promise you, I won’t leave you.” I look away and wrap my arms around my knees. “I don’t believe you.” “I love you!” He says passionately. “Isn’t that enough?” “You’ll leave me.” I fly from him, leaving him to wonder what goes on inside of my fickle … Continue reading Will You stay?
Tag: depression
A World That No Longer Makes Sense
Tonight I came to the conclusion that life doesn’t make sense. I look around at this broken world and I wonder what happened? Where did the joy go? Why is there so much suffering and so little hope to combat it? Why is evil so prevalent and why does good seem so small? Is it … Continue reading A World That No Longer Makes Sense
The Pained
Once upon a time, I took a walk. I was restless and searching for something – I didn’t know what. A few minutes from my house, I passed an old man. His right hand trembled. His left never stopped stroking the simple golden ring on his finger. His grey hair hid most of his face, … Continue reading The Pained
The Girl Who Didn’t Believe In Heroes
There once was a girl who didn’t believe in heroes. While she mocked others for having them, she secretly longed for one. But she knew that no one could ever be her hero...no one cared enough to notice her. She was determined to be self-sufficient. She needed no one. Then the Great Darkness came and … Continue reading The Girl Who Didn’t Believe In Heroes
Helpless
I feel helpless a lot more than I wish. When I see someone I love struggling with the same things that I struggled with in the past (or still do), it’s easy to feel helpless. I can’t take their hurt away. I can’t rescue them. I can’t do anything to force their pain away. This … Continue reading Helpless
Wishing For Words
More often than not, I feel really helpless. I look around me and see so much pain painted everywhere. I see it in the eyes of strangers that pass me in the store. I feel it in the downcast gaze or the lack of words from a family member. I hear it booming through unspoken … Continue reading Wishing For Words
2020 – My New Year’s Hope
I was curled up in the basement closet, my earphones playing Anchor over and over again. Tears were spilling out of my eyes way too fast and the empty ache in my heart only grew more and more by the second. I was hiding, hoping that no one would ever find me because I couldn’t … Continue reading 2020 – My New Year’s Hope