My goodness, how did 2022 go so fast? I keep accidentally writing 2022 instead of 2023. It’s just weird. Anyway, last year I posted some of my goals for the year and I thought it’d be fun to see how I did on them in this post, as well as to make some goals for this year.
No Fear ✔
My word for 2022 was fearless. I’d let fear take hold of me in so many ways and it was stopping me from reaching my goals and connecting with God and others. Was I fearless in 2022? HAHAHAHAHAHA! No. Not even close. I’d have to say that there was more anxiety and panic during 2022 than most other years. But I’m counting this as a win because I didn’t let that fear keep me from doing the things that needed to be done. Even if God (and my parents) had to practically shove me into those situations that I really, really, really didn’t want to be in.
Speak to Humans ✔
I love people. I love words. I just don’t like saying those words or coming up with clever responses on the spot – aka having normal conversations. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve replayed a conversation in my head and thought, “MAN, I should have said this or that and oh, it would have been so perfect.” But of course, I don’t think of it until it is much too late.
Oh to have the wit and humor of Mark Twain. Or Jehosheba.
In any case, I did grow a lot in learning to have normal conversations with normal people. Thank you, O Work.
Grow Deeper Spiritually ✔
Yes. I grew a lot in my faith and drew closer to God than I have in a while. In my moments of panic, fear, and grief, I relied on him more than ever. I needed him and he was there for me. I learned so much about truth and how we must cling to it in this post-truth world.
Stop Hiding Self-harm Scars ✔
Boy oh boy, this was really hard. I stopped hurting myself a while ago, but the scars stayed behind. Hundreds of scars. In 2022, after much advice and talking with my parents and sister, I decided that I’d tell the rest of my siblings what happened and not hide those scars anymore.
It was so much harder than I imagined. I hated hurting my siblings by telling them. I hated seeing their sad faces and knowing that they were trying to comprehend how I could do something like that.
But I am so so so thankful that I did it. It is such a relief to not have to keep that secret anymore. I also loved wearing short sleeves in the summer for the first time in years. It was glorious (although my milky white arms burned instantly and turned very red after the first day outside XD).
I never thought that I would be comfortable in my own skin, that it would be possible to walk around with my scars on display and not feel utterly ashamed and awkward. But you know what? A lot of times I even forget that they’re there. I’ll glance down at my arms and be like, “Oh, right.”
Yes, there have been awkward moments and times when I wanted to crawl into a hole. Yes, I still haven’t worked up the nerve to go to work in short sleeves. But praise God for the way that he worked all of this out. I am so so thankful that he gave me the courage to stop hiding past mistakes and to move forward in hope.
Learn to Drive ❌
Um. No. Nope. Cars scare me. Driving scares me. Being in charge of something so powerful makes me want to shrivel up and never leave the house ever again. XD So no, I didn’t get my license in 2022. I got my permit and started driving around with Daddy, though. Snail steps.
Get a Job ✔
Yep. I started working as a DSP at a home for women with disabilities. I love it. God knew it was a perfect job for me.
Take Doula Classes & Get Certified ❌
Uuuuuh. So I took the doula class and even as I was taking it, everything inside of me was screaming that this wasn’t what I wanted to do with my life. The whole midwife & doula life course has been scrapped.
Finish Latin Classes ❌
Nope. I found numerous other things to do instead of sitting down to study Latin. XD
Exercise Regularly (ideally 300 days out of the year) ✔
Yep. I exercised almost every day – I only missed 15 or so days all year, I believe, and most of those were after a YDUBS friend committed suicide and Dreamer died, soooo… I’m quite proud of my exercise streak, lol. Keeps me motivated. XD
Chew Well ✔
Check. (For most of the year, when I wasn’t panic eating…)
Complete Spring100 ✔
Yes!!! My goal was to go 300 miles. I ended up going a total of 600.5 without reinjuring my shins like the year before. XD Hopefully this year I’ll get more miles. 😉
All Gliders In the Same Cage ✔
Yep. All three were successfully introduced and are now all living in peace and harmony. Mostly. Ilona is still very determined to be queen and quickly squashes down any weak attempts to the throne by her male counterparts.
Get a FaceBook Account ✔
Yep. I discovered a ton of other glider nerds, so that made me quite happy.
Finish the 1st Draft of Glider Book ❌
Alas, no. I made a lot of progress on the book, but it was in spurts. I’d write a ton and then not touch it for months.
Get Etsy Shop Running ✔
YES! Handmade Sugar Gliders is live. *heart eyes* I’ve had 41 sales, which is honestly more than I ever thought I’d get. XD I’ve been quite pleased with the whole experience and thankful for everyone who bought something!
Teach Yoveil & Dovid ✔
I really enjoyed teaching Dovid and Yoveil school for the first few months of the year. That stopped once I got a job, but it was a sweet experience and I’m so thankful I got to do it.
Write 2 Full-Length Novels/Projects ✔
I honestly didn’t think I’d get this one. XD I barely wrote all year long. Then November came and I completed my Nano novel as well as a 45,000-word memoir of our overseas vacation. XD Random moments of inspiration.
Read 125 Books ✔
Yep. I ended up reading 202, which is way more than I thought. XD Audiobooks are awesome.
My word for 2023 is revolutionary. There are so many bad ideas and so many anti-God anti-truth anti-family notions that have become very popular. I don’t want to buy into them. I want to be different. I want to fight for God, truth, family, and hope.
Even if it means that people see me as someone with no tolerance, a hater (even though I have no intentions of hating anyone, I don’t believe in the idea that true love is giving anyone anything they want), and someone who is old fashioned and close-minded. *sighs* God’s going to have to give me strength because He knows that I don’t have it at all.
- Grow closer to God and learn to truly love him
- Read the Whole Bible
- Memorize 12 Psalms
- Continue to overcome fear & learn to speak
- Get my license (I’m so dreading the test)
- Buy a car (Um…I know literally nothing about cars…suggestions??)
- Figure out what I want to do with my life (so easy, such a breeze!)
- Exercise 360 days
- Walk at least 3 miles a day
- Complete Spring100 – Goal 700 miles (who else is doing it this year?)
- Finish 1st Draft of Glider Book (maybe it’ll actually happen this year)
- Finish 3 Novels/Writing Projects (doubt that’ll come to pass)
- Read 150 Books
- Get A New Glider (because why not? I have my eye on some adorable male caramels. Caramels are super relaxed, and gentle and are supposed to be even sweeter than normal gliders. *smiles pleadingly towards parents*)
- Sit Up Straight (chronic sloucher here, which means I go to bed every night and spend forever trying to get to sleep but can’t because my back hurts so bad)
- Go A Month Without My Beloved Sugar (*sighs* *sniffles* *weeps*)
What are your goals for 2023? How did you do on your 2022 goals? In what ways have you grown this year?