The Good Christian: lies that Christians believe

As Christians, it’s easy to fall into the trap that says we have to be perfect. It’s easy to believe that if we’re broken, God must be disappointed in us. When things like mental illness, pain, questions, etc. come up, it is easy to want to hide them because we think that GOOD Christians shouldn’t struggle with those things and we are somehow flawed and defective if we can’t get free from them. I wrote this short story about a girl who is struggling. ❤ I hope that you will be encouraged. Remember – no one is perfect. We’re all broken and in need of a Savior.

Smiling, smiling, always smiling.  That’s what a good Christian should do.

“Rejoice in all circumstances” they tell me. “Be anxious for nothing” they say. “God won’t give you more than you can handle.”

I slide into the pew, thankful for the mask that hides my face. Without it, they will notice my frown. Maybe they’ll see the traces of tears left from the night that I spent awake in the dark.

Still smiling. That’s what I must do. To be seen as a good Christian, I have to stand in the storm and sing hymns until I’m rescued.

I’ve been standing long. Life is forcing me to my knees. Soon I’ll crumple into the dust. When I do, I just hope that they won’t be looking. I whisper a silent prayer that their eyes will be turned away and wish that all they’ll see is my perfect, social smile as the weight of pain slowly kills me.

Keep my lips pressed tight together. Keep the anger and shrieks of rage from escaping. Stuff it down, hide it away, do anything but let it out. Good Christians aren’t angry.

I fall to my knees, the wind still beating me from behind. I look towards the skies. That’s where deliverance is supposed to come from. My mouth is parched and lips cracked. I can’t sing another note. Those eyes that follow me everywhere, they glare down at me. Sing now. Because that’s what a good Christian should do.

I’m curled up on the bathroom floor, gasping for breath and begging Fear to release its grasp on my throat. Tell me it’ll go away soon. Promise me that it won’t come when I’m not ready. Not supposed to be afraid. After all, I’m perfectly safe. God won’t let anything bad happen to me. I should believe that. Why does it just seem so empty and hollow?

Attention seeker. Too much. Emotional. Weird. Broken. Words that sting my heart and bring tears to my eyes. Some uttered by them, others by my own mind. I tug my sleeves to cover my arms. Christians aren’t supposed to be scarred.

Keep it all together. Ignore the blackness. Ignore the pain. Ignore everything that says I should be dead. Maybe it’ll go away if I just try hard enough. I wait. I pray. Why is it still here? Why, why, why? Stop, no. Christians can’t ask why. Just go along with the punches because happy, blessed times are just around the corner. Just have enough faith and everything will be okay.

But it’s not okay. I crumble. I break. Trying so hard to keep them from seeing the real me. Trying so hard to just keep breathing. Why won’t the oxygen of hope fill me?

I’m fine, I’m okay, I’m great. Repeat it over and over again and hope that they believe me. Maybe I’ll believe me if I say it enough. Can I grind it into my brain?

Can’t keep going now. Too tired. Life is too much. Release me. I’ll fly away. I’ll find peace high in the sky. I’ll dance in the sunlight.

Failed to be the good Christian. Can’t keep smiling. Can’t find strength to stand anymore. I’m not the flawless Christian that they expect.

“Finally. You admit it.” I hear a Voice, one louder than the black ones in my head. “You’re trying so hard to be the perfect Christian that you forgot about one of the most important part of Christianity. Heart.”

I raise my weary face. A bright light is before me. I see eyes in the midst of it. They look upon me with compassion, not judgment.

“I want your heart. I want the broken, bleeding mess of you. I want to heal you. I want to give you hope.”

What’s taking you so long? I want to scream. Why are you waiting?

“You needed everything stripped away so that you could see Who you need most. The pain you feel will lead to beauty and healing.”

The light fades. I’m lying on the ground, tired, sad, broken. Will there be no end to this night? Tell me light is coming. Tell me I can rise again.

As I lay here, I hear a voice in my head. Kind. Strong. As it speaks, I begin to weep. I don’t try to stop the tears. For once, I don’t try to smile.

Jesus was angry when he found that the temple, the place of worship, had been turned into a house of greed.

I scream and let the breeze carry my shame with it. I catch my breath again and get a lungful of clear air.

Job lost everything. He cried out in agony and pain. He wanted to die. He knew the depths of darkness. God didn’t condemn him for that. He never said, “Snap out of it. Just believe harder and it’ll go away.”

I tear off my smiling mask. I touch it with fire. I watch as my façade burns. I am vulnerable. I’m not hiding all of me anymore.

David asked why. When he was being hunted, he cried out to God. God answered him.

A sob escapes my tired lips. Relief washes over me. I tremble.

Jesus was afraid. Before he went to the cross, he begged the Father to take away the cup that he had to drink from. God didn’t. He suffered, bled and died…so that we could find hope. Fear isn’t a flaw.

Pangs of sadness, joy and peace pierce my heart.

Jesus has scars, too. He is God, he could have healed them. But he didn’t. He kept them so that Thomas could have proof of his resurrection. He kept them to show his victory over death, over sin. He kept them so that you can see and find courage to keep going, so that you can believe that your scars are not the end.

Timidly, with shaking hands, I pull off my sweater. I wince at the sight of the scars. So many scars. Every one representing a thousand unshed tears, a broken heart, and a desperate girl crying out for relief from the pain. I feel the wind against my arms. I touch them with gentle fingertips, not in anger, fear or hatred as I have done so many times before.

All throughout history, God doesn’t choose the perfect people who have it all together to fight great battles and to bring hope to a pining world. No, he uses the scarred, the broken, the bruised. He uses people like you. You’re his masterpiece, not yet finished. No matter how many times you give up on yourself, he’ll still seek you out. Calling you by your true name, he’ll bring you to the place where you belong.

I push myself to my knees. The weight on my soul isn’t gone…but it’s lighter. I stand. I stumble, fall, and try again. When I raise my head from my third fall, I catch a glimpse of those compassionate eyes. They call to me, Don’t give up.

I’m not what society calls a good Christian. And that’s okay. Now I’m smiling. This time, it’s real.


Do you agree with the story? What are lies that you believe – things that you have to do and be to be “the perfect Christian”.

47 thoughts on “The Good Christian: lies that Christians believe

  1. The beauty that comes after the storm,
    the calm that comes after the chaos,
    the healing that comes after the hurt,
    the peace that comes after the greif.
    The well have no need of a doctor.
    The sick need the help of our Lord,
    that is why he died for us,
    that’s why that baby was born.

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  2. W.O.W. this is ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!!! I love it. 🤗 You were able to pull so many deep and sad emotions into a beautiful allegory. If only everyone could see this clearly all the time!

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  3. Hattush, I am constantly amazed at how good you are at writing with emotion. You don’t just trigger emotion. You write WITH it. And I am totally sobbing inside. When I was 11, I asked some of those questions. I called myself names in my mind. I thought I was useless, hopeless. A year later I was baptized, and I still struggle, but I’m learning that I’m a mess. That’s not why I try really hard to fix it and am thankful I don’t have to be what I am even though I don’t know how not to be. That’s a lie I believed. I’m a mess, and that’s why I need Him. He isn’t a mess. The only way to clean up my mess is to have someone clean it. My mom’s told me before “this room won’t clean itself!” If it was alive, it might want to. But it can’t. It’s easy to clean up the outside, but our heart is just a mess, smashed by Satan and the world and carefully sewn and melted back together by the Lord and His plans and scolding. ❤

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  4. Woah! That was amazing!
    I’ve felt so many times that I have to be the perfect Christian, but obviously I’m not. I internally beat myself up sometimes, but I am doing better than I was before. I lie that I used to believe was that in order to be a “good” Christian you had to read the Bible everyday, and go to church every Sunday. I’ve learned that it isn’t true, but those are both good things to do.

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  5. Hattush, this is absolutely amazing, this made me cry! When I was baptized into my church, I didn’t tell them my story, I gave them the bare bones, the perfect version. Week after week I would go and force myself to sing along with them, not really worshipping but just playing along with the act. I hated myself, I couldn’t lift my hands to worship because if I did I might cry over how unworthy I was and am. I smiled and kept my head up, focus on being a good Christian. I constantly tell other people how valuable they are, I am good with words and write inspirational blog posts about having faith, and yet here I am, broken, weak. Christians seem to have forgotten what it means to be a Christ follower. It means that God is strong when we are weak. I have been in quite a few different churches. I have seen those where people walk around puffed up like peacocks, judging each other, and I have seen others full of compassion and love. Thank you so much for this, your story is so inspiring ❤ ❤ You are BEAUTIFUL! Paul asked God three times to take away the thorn in His side. But God said that His strength is made perfect in our weakness, not in our pretending to be okay.

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    1. Aw, thank you so much, Rae. Your comment is beautiful. ❤ ❤ I know what you mean – I've did the same for years. Just going through the motions and trying so hard to be seen as a "good Christian". I've been to tons of churches, as well, and it's sad to see how much judgement there is when people are real and broken. 😦 God wants US not our "perfect" worship.


  6. wow, Hattush! That is perfect! It resonates the psalms and the love story between humankind and God. This broken, glued together vessel hears you and the pain of real human hearts. If only we would all be released of our deep learned mantel of shame and have the courage to share our real journeys to allow intimacy and true fellowship between fellow travellers. Thank you very much for this examen well expressed. xx

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  7. I realize that the subject of my up coming presentation will seem off topic, but i present it as a way of offering context to current events.

    The kabbala of chariot mysticism stands on the distinction that, unlike a wagon, a chariot rolls upon two wheels – daat & t’shuva. Daat separates and distinguishes external events from internal feelings and reactions. T’shuva struggles to define how a person dedicates his or her life before HaShem in the coming year, based upon contrition upon previous errors committed in this last year. The wheels within wheels within the Shemone Esri have gone full circle with the annual reading of the Torah beginning anew with בראשית ונח. The dedication of middot blocks directly learns from the annual weekly reading of the Torah. Both the Torah and tefilla begin with the k’vanna of the general Big Picture concepts of faith, prior to delving into the specifics of the Cohen family of Avraham.“The Existence of God.” What evidence do atheists accept as valid? The Koran, the New Testament, the Hebrew T’NaCH, or perhaps the faiths as taught from India, Japan, and China?

    The Koran declares “Only one God lives”. This bold declaration, blatantly negates the Sinai 2nd commandment: “Do not worship other Gods”. By logical inference: if only one God lives, which the Muslims name as Allah, why does the Sinai revelation command not to worship other Gods? Shall we attempt to declare that Par’o of ancient Egypt worshiped only Allah? Therefore based upon the false declaration of Monotheism made by “the prophet”, who declared himself a prophet on the order of T’NaCH prophets, the Koran strict monotheism stands totally debunked.

    The title: New Testament makes reference to the foundation of Torah faith known as “the brit”. The first word of the Torah בראשית this word contains within its 6 letters ברית אש\brit fire. The translation of brit into English, based upon the stories of the Avot: alliance. The opening Book of the Torah directly and repeatedly addresses the subject of cutting political alliances. The skill required to cut a political alliance with others, applies equally to us as it did to them.

    The problem with the ”New Testament”, that collection of books never once brings the Name revealed in the 1st Commandment at Sinai. The Name – exists as the living Spirit, and not just another word. Despite the declaration otherwise, as found in the opening pages of the book of John’s gospel. Moshe the prophet forbade pronunciation of the Name, according to the grammar of its four letters. The opening account of Creation, the Name blew his Spirit unto clay, transforming this clay into the living man – named Adam – and Israel at Sinai heard the sound of the Shofar. Pronouncing the Name, as revealed at the Sinai revelation, perverts and defiles the Spirit of the Name. It demotes the Name a common word. The kabbalah of writing a Safer Torah stands upon this fundamental distinction.

    Never in all the pages of the New Testament do any of these Greek books bring the Name as revealed at Sinai. Translation of words from language to language, compares words with other words. But you can not translate a Spirit by making it into a word. It requires great skill to define the nature of a color using word metaphors. HaShem does not compare to anything in the earth, heavens or Seas. Words simply do not breath life. Quote Shakespeare to dead person and the corpse remains dead. To cut a Torah brit alliance requires swearing a Torah oath using the Name. This kabbalah learns directly from Moshe the prophet. Therefore both the New Testament & the Koran, stand totally debunked. Both counterfeit faiths failed to discern that brit means alliance.

    A proof that brit does not translate into covenant: Where do the Gods ‘Father’ & Allah live? The counterfeit religions teach that their Gods live in the Heavens. The brit alliance, this faith by contrast teaches that HaShem lives within the hearts of the Cohen nation. The mitzva of tefilla, based upon the authority of the halacha, exists as a duty of the heart. The halacha requires that a Yechudi face toward Jerusalem, in order to teach the mussar that a Man must turn unto his heart. Torah faith teaches that HaShem lives within the hearts of his Cohen people. The brit faith established by Avram at the brit between the pieces, our father made an oath alliance which sets the pre-condition that HaShem lives within the hearts of the Cohen seed of Avram. This brit faith defines the idea of the ‘Chosen People’.

    Torah commands the opposite of Muslim Monotheism, it validates the existence of many Gods. Clearly the Hindus and Chinese peoples never swore a Torah brit alliance. Atheists in Russia, or Europe, or America, shall they make unilateral declarations which negate the Gods which these billions of people worship? Hubris arrogance, every atheist I ever met from Russia, Europe, or America does not speak the language of Hindu, Japan, or China, much less Vietnam or Korea etc etc etc. The Books these millions upon millions of people, upon which they base their beliefs in their Gods, these above mentioned hubris arrogant atheists from Russia, Europe, and America, their negative worship, it only validates their self centered Ego beliefs; which seeks to invalidate the traditions of peoples whom they do not know. Atheism for this reason stands totally debunked by simple humility and logic.

    What בראשית ב:ז – ויפח באפיו נשמת חיים ויהי האדם לנפש חיה … ועץ החיים בתוך הגן ועץ הדעת טוב ורע faith does this teach touching the chosen Cohen nation? It seems to me, by the sh’itta taught to me from my Rav, that rabbi Akiva derived his kabbala of פרדס from

    ב: י – ונהר יצא מעדן להשקות את הגן ומשם יפרד והיה לארבעה ראשים. [The concept of פרדס, the logic system format known as p’shat, drosh, remez, and sod].

    The פרדס kabbala taught by rabbi Akiva and all his students, addresses the meaning of the revelation of the Oral Torah logic system revealed unto Moshe at Mt Horev, 40 days after the sin of the Golden Calf; specifically: Moshe has died, who will teach us the rest of the Torah revelation at Sinai? Moshe derived through logical inference the 611 commandments which he commanded, as his primary source commentary to the opening two Sinai commandments, which the Cohen nation accepted upon the soul lives of all generations of our children, as our faith worship unto HaShem who brought the Cohen nation out of Egypt. This פרדס foundation defines and gives purpose to all scholarship within the pages of the Talmud.

    The Big Picture concept of faith as taught by the Parsha of בראשית which defines the k’vanna of the opening daat blessing of the first ברכה within the 13 middle blessings of the Shemone Esri, [wheels within wheels], this concept of faith, weighs the commitment of the generations to walk in tohor before HaShem. The subject of tohor applies strictly and only unto the Cohen nation. Neither Goyim or Yidden who assimilate and kiss the calves of foreign non Jewish cultures and customs, this huge branch of Humanity has no concept or idea what tohor means. Keeping the commandments as the ‘sign’ of the brit, most essentially requires that the Cohen people commit before HaShem only to do avodat HaShem while breathing tohor spirits – as acts of holiness.

    Doing mitzvot לשמה understands that the din of כרת comes and cuts Israel off from Israel when ever the Cohen people behave with hubris arrogance and attempt to do avodat HaShem while breathing tuma spirits. On par with a woman, attempting tohorat ha’biet, who goes to the mikveh while holding a dead rat in her hand; comes out of the mikveh and declares to her husband that she has made herself tohor. As this example invalidates the mitzva of tohorat ha’biet, so too tuma spirits invalidates observance of all the תרי”ג mitzvot.

    ג: יד – ויאמר ה’ אלהים אל הנחש כי עשית זאת ארור אתה מכל הבהמה ומכל חית השדה וכו’.

    The נחש teaches a central Torah משל. The נמשל which interprets that משל, the tuma Yatzir Ha’Ra lives within the hearts of all bnai brit – unto all eternity – together and likewise with the tohor Yatzir Ha’Tov spirits within our hearts. HaShem judges the struggle of the 2 Yatzirot within our hearts in each and every generation. The story of king David and Bathsheba, teaches as similar mussar משל. Learning Torah requires that students ask: What mussar does the Torah\NaCH command each and every generation?
    דכתיב ג:יט – כי עפר אתה ואל עפר תשוב.

    Xtian theology preaches on a physical resurrection from the dead. The daat of “soul”, by Torah faith, by contrast refers to the generations of the bnai brit offspring, as the Olam Ha’Bah of the Cohen nation. How many children did Avram have when he cut the brit between the pieces? None.

    The story of Cain teaches the mussar of the tuma inheritance which the first murderer caused his children to inherit. The identical tuma which women who abort their children, they cause their seed to inherit; the most basic and fundamental of Torah curses, denounces an earth filled with violence and injustice. A simple proof: all women who abort their babies, such women never kept the mitzva of tohorat ha’biet. T’shuva, no regret or remorse can ever atone for the crime of abortion. In like din, the same applies to gross European guilt during the 20th Century.

    בראשית ה:כט – ויקרא את שמו נח לאמר זה ינחמנו ממעשנו ומעצבון ידינו מן האדמה אשר אררה ה’.

    The 2nd wheel of the mystic Divine Chariot – t’shuva. The dedication within our hearts to keep the commandments לשמה, meaning through the dedication of tohor middot unto HaShem, do the generations of the Cohen nation validate t’shuva from g’lut? The Cohen nation commits to restrict avodat HaShem to tohor middot, which we breathe from within our hearts. Tefilla – strictly a matter of the heart. A man who does not discern between the tohor/tuma spirits within his heart, such a man cannot do t’shuva לשמה – meaning in the Name of tohor middot dedicated unto HaShem.

    Tonight Yidden light the first of the Hanukkah lights. The Gemara of Shabbat teaches the famous dispute between Bet Shammai and Bet Hillel concerning lighting the lights of Hanukkah. This famous dispute always puzzled me, what difference does it make whether one begins with lighting 8 candles the first night or only one? What does lighting the lights of Hanukkah have to do with the life and death struggle against Greek cultural domination of the tiny Jewish State?

    The B’hag, whose Torah shined during the waning domination of the Gaonim schools. Reshonim scholarship followed the lights of the Gaonim schools. The B’hag holds that the rabbinic mitzvot of both Purim and Hanukkah, that their “light” shines as part of the 613 Commandments which Israel received from HaShem and Moshe Rabbenu.

    The Rambam denounced the “light” by which the B’hag directed the generations of Israel. The B’hag links Hanukkah, as does the Talmud to the mitzva of Shabbat. He held that lighting the lights of Shabbat – this mitzva – too a Torah commandment; its light shines on par with the Torah mitzvot of Purim and Hanukkah. To comprehend the leadership direction, or “light”, as revealed by the Torah of the B’hag, Yidden must discern the common denominator between the Houses of Hillel and Shammai in their debates over lighting the lights of Shabbot. Their Talmudic debate within the Mesechta of Shabbot, teaches the halachic k’vanna of the mitzva of lighting the lights of Hannukah throughout the generations.

    The Greek empire conquered the Persian empire, which uprooted the Babylonian empire, who destroyed Jerusalem and expelled the Yechudim from the lands ruled by the king of Yechuda of the House of David. Greek hostility to the Torah centered, not upon the Written Torah, but rather the Oral Torah. This latter Torah logic format/“light”, expresses itself through a unique t’shuva, by which Yechudim, following the error of the golden calf, dedicate their souls, meaning their children, how the generation will interpret the language of the Written Torah. The t’shuva made by post golden calf Israel, we rely strictly upon the Oral Torah logic format alone to interpret the k’vanna of the Written Torah. This logic format/Oral Torah/“light”, it alone guides how the Cohen nation, throughout the generations, understands the k’vanna of the Written Torah Constitution of the Jewish Republic.

    The Greek schools of philosophy taught completely different logic formats. The logic of Plato and Aristotle philosophers overshadow the ancient Greek contribution of knowledge to humanity unto the present day. Yidden, humiliated from our disgrace of the avoda zarah of the Golden Calf, the t’shuva made by our forefathers, we swear the same Torah oath, in all generations. The Yechudim people sanctify as our eternal dedication unto the Sinai Torah revelation — to interpret the Written Torah by the “lights” of Oral Torah middot logic, which Moshe the prophet orally heard at Horev, 40 days after the golden calf on Yom Kippor.

    The lights of Shabbot, the dedication to strive to achieve shalom among family and friends. The lights of reading the Megillah on Purim, the dedication of tohor, as opposed by tuma middot – unto HaShem. The Book of Ester, the only Book of the T’NaCH which lacks the Name of HaShem. The Name המן and המלך their numerical equality teaches a רמז Gematria of tohor as opposed to tuma middot. The k’vanna of “kingship” (To make a Torah blessing requires both Name and Kingship), as a king stands at the head of a nation, so too the sanctification of tohor, as opposed to tuma, middot unto HaShem – middot blocks of logic, expresses the faith touching the revelation of the Torah, throughout each and every generation. The mussar of the Book of Ester teaches middot, the contrast the middot expressed which contrasts the behavior of Mordecai and Haman and their social interactions with others..

    In similar fashion the Gemara of Shabbot, teaches the k’vanna of lighting the lights of Hannukah, expressed through the contrast of opinions taught through conflicting opinions of Bet Shammai and Bet Hillel. What defines the Oral Torah? Logic middot blocks serve as the יסוד/foundation of Oral Torah ordered thought and analysis. The Order of the middot block logic system contrasts with the ancient Greek mathematical logic formats, developed by Plato and Aristotle.

    An example of the Oral Torah middot blocks logic system: You can not achieve justice, when Western leaders refer to civilian ‘colored’ casualties as “collateral damage”. The great powers ‘police actions’ have shaped the internal affairs of foreign societies – not just limited to the post WW2 Cold War, that pits the West against the East. A fundamental issue of the Western interventions and imperialism in the Middle East and North Africa, Western society dominates, even and has even conquers Arab and Muslim societies.

    But the stark contrast: Arabs and Muslims faith, to a large degree, remain strong in the Koran; whereas Western societies to an ever growing percentage embrace the scientific mathematical secular model as their central supporting column of faith. Western civilization has abandoned Xtian theology, perhaps due to the corrupt reputation the church’s evil and perverse actions of oppression, violent murder throughout the Ages. Today, Western societies view the Church on par with ancient Greek and Roman polytheism and the worship of mythical Gods. The question stands: How did the unfaithful conquer and defeat the faithful? A fundamental question that has no easy answers for the folks, which the West refers simply as “collateral damage”.

    What causes the disaster of internal revolution and Civil War, to rank as the worst natural disaster to any people or civilization throughout history? When the “ethical containment force” that makes a peoples’ culture and customs, separate and unique, from all other peoples and societies, when this “social fabric” rips apart and becomes a tattered rag blowing in the winds of war, generally – the first American Civil War excluded – with the collapse and anarchy of the Central Government. The consequences of social and political chaos, foreign governments intervene in the internal operations and government of such a collapsed society torn apart by internal revolution and Civil War.

    Lincoln, his illegal decision to initiate and invade the Confederate States, takes the first American Civil War out of the picture of virtually all other internal revolutions and Civil Wars. Because Civil War, by general definition, effectively means the collapse of Central Government order and stability. Even still, without the leadership of Henry Seward as Lincoln’s Secretary of State, Britain’s Prime Minister Palmerston at the time, would most probably have recognized the Confederate, ‘States Rights’ revolt against Lincoln’s extreme anti-Jeffersonian ideas of democracy. Judge the wrestle which both enemies & allies build strength, dignity, and respect. In all Judicial matters of Capital Crimes Cases/din’a nefshot – Torah law requires no less than 2 witnesses. One witness in any Capital Crimes case – acceptance or reliance upon a single witness – tuma. Tuma, commonly expressed as l’shon ha’rah or mo’zteh shem rah.

    The Torah middot logic blocks, as expressed through every page of the Talmud, stuggles to understand a “Case”, by making similar but different “Case” studies from different subjects. The Case/Rule format style of the Mishna establishes this legal code upon a judicial format of Common Law. Jewish common law justice, attempts to resolve conflicts through analysist of similar precedential prior Court Case rulings. For example: How does Israel differ from other nations who experience a terrorist attack?

    “DUHOK, Iraqi Kurdistan region,— A convoy of KDP Peshmerga
    militants came under attack by PKK militants when trying to enter
    PKK areas in the Chamalke district in Duhok province in Iraqi
    Kurdistan following a roadside bomb that exploded next to the
    KDP forces. The attack resulted in one death and three injuries,
    KDP-affiliated Kurdistan24 TV. Head of Culture and Media Culture
    Department at the Kurdistan Regional Government (KRG ) Peshmerga
    Affairs Ministry Babkir Faqe Ahmed told the KDP official media outlet
    that the PKK fighters fired from far distance and it was not a direct attack
    on Peshmerga forces”.

    A different “Case”: the ‘blood libels’ & pogroms came after the 1st crusade war crimes. Church mobs slaughtered German Jewry across, perhaps most, the kingdoms or fiefdoms; the soul of the German people, the Romans viewed them as – barbarians. What contrasts/opposes, perhaps mirrors or opposites, criminal violence? The Talmud aswers this question by proscribing lateral 3 Justices common law Courts . Prosecution and Defense, 2 of the 3 court judges. These Court Judges comprise the opposing Court system of all Talmudic legal understanding, in both Torts and Capital Crimes Courts. Two Yatzirot “wrestle” within the hearts of the bnai brit Cohen nation – light unto the nations — includes all Yechudim residing in g’lut. Yaacov wrestled with the angel of Esau. The Torah defines ‘angel’ in that case, as the agent who has power of attorney for Esau. Meaning prior to meeting his brother, Yaacov struggled within his heart. Torah logic interprets the k’vanna of the written word.

    Justice judges l’shon ha’rah/motze sham-rah contrasted by tohor middot. In order to determine who has an obligation to compensate for damages. Who leads the hearts of men? Upon these scales — all Nations – throughout all generations – stand in judgment. The above case compares an act of terrorism.

    Another hypothetical possible example: this Talmudic Cohen Court system judges the domains of a North African Trade Route. Israel calls to all Sahara nations, help build a deep river/canal that connects the Mediterranean Sea unto the Salt Sea. This action would not only bless both Israel and Jordan; the canal which connects the Mediterranean to the salt sea, ocean acidification permits easy electrolysis which converts water into hydrogen and oxygen gases. Israel and Egypt, both countries could cut a salt canal from the Mediterranean Sea, and form an inland salt sea.

    Bring rain water to the Sahara desert, and make North Africa bloom. While building such a deep canal, remember Mark Twain’s tales of the Mississippi. Israel dedicates to train the refugee Balestinians, in agriculture farm work. Revert the electrolysis gases back to water in the atmosphere, make it rain upon the Sahara. Build a topsoil upon those desert lands, plant trees upon all and every hilltop. Cause a rainforest to dominate the Sahara.

    Such a work requires the dedication of multiple generations – no less than three. No less than 3 generations qualifies as a strong connection alliance. Shalom requires Trust. Trust among nations never begins till a ‘good eye’ prevails. An act of honor, Israel shall never unilaterally expel the Arab stateless refugees from any lands of our Republic, like as did the Europeans; they oppressed Jewish stateless refugees for over 2000 years, and no European court has ever condemned the Church fathers. Justice means providing a tohor medium which facilitates airing disputes over damages, and both opposing parties accepting the Judicial rulings, g’lut Jewry never received such an option by any European court of law.

    Justice has a definition of – determining restitution for damages. Something similar to ‘insurance’. All mine or partially mine? Jerusalem – just for example. Israel rejects the Nazi consequence which resulted in the post war division of Berlin. How many Germans fought and died in Hitler’s War? Arabs, by comparison, rejected both the UN, prestate of Israel, mandate alternatives – Republic or 2 nations. Arabs lost two major wars to throw the Jews into the Sea, both 1948 and 1967 which they started.

    Honor: Arafat declared that the forefathers of Arab refugees in Israel, as the Philistines. Balestinian rhetoric declares that these non Arabs Philistines, that they fathered the Balestinian people? Shaking my head, since when did Europeans sire Arabs? The post war mandate given to Britain by the League of Nations, an international assembly established after WW1. The League named this mandate, based upon the 1917 Balfour Declaration ‘Palestine’. A European name.

    During the British mandate, the only folk who called themselves Palestinians, the Jews. Arabs ‘settlers’ likewise moved to the mandate territories searching for work. Had they referred to themselves as Palestinians, this would imply that Arabs validated the Balfour Agreement, which all Arab leaders fervently rejected. Important to repeat, the League of Nations established the Balfour Agreement as the foundation by which it awarded the ‘Palestine” mandate unto Britain.

    Britain, after receiving the League awarded mandate, almost immediately there after the British government took steps to negate the Balfour treaty. Churchill imposed the Churchill White Paper, June 3rd 1922. Shaking my head. Two points, straight line. Judge. 23rd of May 1939, Neville Chamberlain and his response to the 1936–1939 Arab revolt in Palestine – 2nd White Paper which totally negated the Balfour agreement mandate. The Balfour Declaration came as a result of Weizman’s success at making acetone from the starch, found in cereal grains. This solvent the British Army and Royal Navy desperately required to fire their artillery shells.

    Having won the war, Britain now abandoned their Balfour Declaration ally. A sacrificial gift dedicated to the Nazi Gods of War. In like and similar fashion, Xtian nations of Europe over and again broke faith with the sermon on the mount ideal. By comparison, if a mother has the right to kill a 9 month pre-born baby, then that same mother has the same right to kill that 9 month post-birth baby. Better for a new born mother to see and reject her child, than to vacuum abort her child, which she shall never behold. Responsibility requires accountability. Because accountability builds a reputation. Post Shoah seals the evil reputation, the bad name of Europe. Chamberlain imposed a two state solution upon Czechoslovakia in 1938. Two points equals a straight line. Third witness: Pope Pius XII surrendered the Jews of Rome to the Nazis. Western secularism has rejected the God of the New Testament throughout the bloody history of Church European ‘darkness’.

    Since the establishment of the People’s Republic of China in 1949, Beijing has vehemently opposed separatist movements abroad. Its opposition to secessionist activities within China: Beijing officially considers separatism as one of the “three evil forces” besides terrorism and extremism. This reflects China’s uncompromising devotion to maintaining its territorial integrity at all costs, primarily concerning Taiwan, Tibet, Xinjiang, and Inner Mongolia. China avers that self-determination should not necessarily involve national independence and that stateless nations should not necessarily form or be given states.

    Contrast the cases of Chinese domestic rhetoric against its imperialist foreign policy toward the Middle East. China upholds the Five Principles of Peaceful Coexistence, mutual respect for sovereignty and territorial integrity, mutual non-aggression, mutual non-interference in each other’s internal affairs, equality and mutual benefit, and peaceful co-existence! Yet concerning Middle East hot-spots, the Chinese system promotes “peace and the reasonable settlement of disputes through dialogue and negotiation”, emphasizing the role of the UN Security Council. China promotes the intervention of foreign powers to determine the borders of foreign countries. Chinese revisionist map making supports an independent state of Balestine with full sovereignty, based on the pre-1967 borders, with East Jerusalem as its capital. This obvious double standard, likewise expresses EU Middle East hypocrisy as well.

    Nietzsche teaches that God is dead. Which God? The Xtian God. Mythology has an enduring popularity. But mythical persons, by definition, have never lived. Allah? The prophet of that God, thought Jesus physically lived as a T’NaCH prophet. The Koran repeatedly uses & reuses that word, prophet. Alas like all other religious rhetoric, the Koran failed, even once, to define the critical term upon which its entire faith hinges – prophet. The New Testament in similar fashion failed to understand the Torah definition for the key term brit. The faith of the Hebrew T’NaCH likewise hinges upon this key term. The New Testament, in a similar comparison likewise never defined rhetoric word: love – upon which the New Testament faith stands. Both of these alien theologies about God, neither this nor that ever once brings, or acknowledges, the Name revealed to Israel at Sinai: the 1st Commandment. Proof: that both theologies profane the 2nd Sinai commandment. What do either of these foreign theologies give as their defense?

    Bill Kerr Sr. used to tell me that a Man did not know any subject which he debated, if he could not argue persuasively, on both sides of the dispute. Both alien theologies excluded the Name, the first Sinai commandment. Neither gives as their reason, their fear of the kabbala of Moshe the prophet, which forbids the pronunciation of the Name according to its letters. These rival belief systems about God, they do not teach that their scriptures bring pronouns of the unpronounceable Name, which the Torah calls middot. If the Name revealed at Sinai exists as a noun, then the middot which Moshe the prophet orally heard at Horev, they function as pronouns to that Name. Why the command not to pronounce this Name?

    The defense of both religious rhetoric systems, both fail to validate the revelation of the Name as the Spirit of Life. Both, this writer submits therefore introduce new Gods, based upon the belief that the 1st commandment Name, that this Sinai Name exists, as but only another word; and can therefore be translated as either ‘Father’ or Allah.

    Alas this ‘religious rhetoric’, expressed by the ‘daughter religions’ has no foundation. Both mythologies do not know, much less even consider, the basic reason why Moshe the prophet forbade all persons to pronounce the Name? According to the Gospel of John: the Word and the Name are one, the Word was God. Therefore the defense of the Gospels employment of the metapphor: ‘the Father’, employment of this pronoun takes a hard blow, because HaShem breaths the Spirit of his Name into the flesh, causing all generations of Man to live.

    But ‘the Father’ has the counter: Do not middot, such as ‘King’ serve as pronoun metaphors of the Name? This defense of the Gospels story of Jesus, makes Jesus simply a משל/parable metaphor? Jesus after all taught by means of parables. This parable of Jesus instructs on the subject of leadership … or light. This defense transforms the Gospel narrative unto prophetic mussar.

    But this defense, it collapses because both ‘daughter religions’ teach as fundamental faith, that Jesus physically lived on this earth. The comparison to middot does not hold because middot most essentially functions – expressed through logic – Church dogma, by contrast stands upon Dogma and Belief. The unique logic system known as Oral Torah. The Name – the Spirit of life, lives not as a word. The Name breaths Spirit unto all generations of Adama clay. ‘HaShem’ breathes the Spirit of His Name, causing all life to live. Therefore the Name exemplifies the Spirit of life. Try to pronounce the Spirit of Life, and cause inanimate clay to live.

    The Name lives as Spirit, and not a simple word printed upon a page. This basic distinction separates a Safer Torah, the Name written by the Sofer לשמה, from a printed Torah book which writes the Name, as if it exists comparable to just another word. In similar fashion the k’vanna requirement to daa’ven/pray. This mitzva of tefilla, most essentially requires that a man distinguishes the Name Spirit from all other words. The substitute word employed by the pronunciation by the tongue for the Name, Adonoi. But tefilla requires k’vanna. What distinguishes the tefilla from Psalms? What difference separates praying a blessing from praying a praise? Praying a blessing requires the k’vanna of swearing a Torah oath. Praying a Psalm praise does not require the k’vanna of not swearing a Torah oath. A Torah brit requires swearing a Torah oath. A Torah oath requires swearing in the Name of HaShem. Brit as defined as ‘alliance’, stands apart from covenant as defined as personable belief.

    The mitzva of blowing the shofar – serves as a second witness. Mitzvot learn from other mitzvot. The dedication of spirit within our hearts, learns from the Akada ram’s horn. Life not death. The question that Yitzak asked Avraham … this same question Ishmael likewise asked the servant of Avraham, circumcised 2nd after Avraham? The blowing of the shofar signaled that the Name provided a ram in the place of Avramham’s son – Yitzak. The mitzva of blowing the shofar on Rosh HaShanna announces the din of life rather than death. This mitzva teaches how to pronounce the Spirit of the Name of life – Tekiah, Teruah, Shevarim. Tefilla requires the dedication of blowing the spirit within the heart dedicated unto God, just like Avraham dedicated the life of Yitzak unto El Shaddai. The study of kabbala requires an active knowledge of the Divine Names, as well as the ‘middot logic blocks’ pronouns.

    Pardon implies a successful defense. Does this mean that these two counterfeit religions, both based upon mythology, that the worship of either Xtian or Islamic God does not violate the 2nd Sinai commandment: not worship other Gods? The ‘prophet’ Mohammad permits eating camel flesh. The Torah directly forbids consumption of both camel flesh, together with any of its by-products, such as milk. In the order of succession tuma foods, camel precedes hog.

    The Torah establishes the foundation of the Cohen people upon tohora. Muslims do not eat pork, but do eat camel, or camel by-products, like milk. Muslim theology teaches a strict monotheism. Neither Xtianity nor Islam teach the faith of the Cohen nation, the basis of the Chosen People faith. The faith of the Cohen nation stands upon the foundation of tohor middot. The strict monotheism of Islam violates the Sinai 2nd commandment. If only one God, then no reason to command: do not worship other Gods. Neither of the ‘daughter religions’, grasped the seminal importance of how middot defines the meaning of tohor.

    בראשית\\ברית אש this רמז, words within words, helps to define the k’vanna of the 1st word of the Torah. The first word of the Torah contrasts with the revelation of the Spirit Name at Sinai. Words, so to speak, set the destiny course of the Cohen nation: ראש בית/Head of House, ב’ ראשית/Two Beginnings. The Sinai Spirit revelation, by contrast, inspires the conscious Will to act. The genesis of two opposing Yatzirot ב’ ראשית, within the Cohen people’s heart – Brit – an alliance requires no less than two partners.

    The ‘daughter religions’ never once refers to the spirituality of the oath alliance. Both religions of avoda zara confuse the meaning of brit. Brit does not translate as – covenant. An oath requires swearing in the Name. How does a person swear in the Name? Since the Name does not live as a word. Mitzvot defines mitzvot, comparable to metal sharpens metal.

    A mitzva originates back to the prophets, it teaches mussar. Mussar requires the 13 tohor middot blocks which Moshe the prophet heard from the Spirit//Name, at Horev: on Yom Kippor – 40 days after the avoda zarah of the Golden Calf. The counterfeit religions do not teach mussar, but rather theology. Both tuma faiths deny the Oral Torah revelation of middot, blocks of logic. Our Sages teach that Israel approached Aaron at the crisis of the golden calf. But what happened to the other judges of the Great Sanhedrin? The people asked Aaron, because he alone remained alive of the Great Sanhedrin judges!

    Both Aggadita and Midrash teach that the people thought Moshe the prophet had died. Up to this point, the Sinai revelation … Israel had only accepted only the first 2 Commandments. Therefore the people said to Aaron, Moshe has passed from the world, who shall teach us the rest of the Torah? All of the other 611 Torah commandments, Moshe the prophet logically derive from the first two Sinai commandments. Based on how he employed these tohor middot logic blocks, Moshe the prophet derived the rest of the Torah. All Torah commandments teach mussar, because mussar applies equally to all generations. This oral Torah logic system, Moshe the prophet, heard at Mt. Horev – forty days after the Golden Calf avoda zarah. From this Oral Torah logic system of middot blocks, Moshe the prophet, derived the other 611 commandments.

    Neither this nor that religious rhetoric belief system(s) can discern the distinction between Torah commandments from prophetic mitzvot. How much more so the distinction between prophetic mitzvot and rabbinic mitzvot//halachot. Do either this and that religious rhetoric theology belief formats – deserve pardon for their transgression of Avodah Zarah? Based upon the 2nd Sinai commandment, multiple Gods live. Yet Nietzsche declares God is dead. Which God died? Post Shoah, judging the behavior of believers from both tenets of faith, both Jesus son of Zeus and Allah have died.

    The Lies Conflating the Holocaust and The Promised Land – by FirstOneThrough.


    Many people believe that the world endorsed the notion of a Jewish State because of the terrible tragedy which befell the Jews. While some countries may have indeed voted at the United Nations in favor of recognizing Israel because of the Holocaust, its reestablishment was sponsored by the global community years before World War II.


    2/3rds of the UN member states voted in favor of Jewish self determination. Arab rejection of the Partition Plans demonstrated that Arab States did not care a less about the Shoah war crimes against humanity. Arab countries national interests did not concern the establishment of a Balestinian state. Rather, Arab interests simply opposed the existence of the Jewish state within the League of Nations Palestine Mandate borders.


    First by the British in the 1917 Balfour Declaration, then by the League of Nations in the 1920 San Remo Agreement and the 1922 Mandate of Palestine, the leading countries of the world supported Jews reestablishing their homeland. In the late 1930’s the British specifically called for creating a distinct Jewish State in Palestine. All of these actions were taken before the genocide of European Jewry.


    These examples fail to address the imperialism interests by which Britain systematically negated the Balfour Declaration; specifically the Churchill White Paper followed by the Chamberlain White Paper, both of which uprooted and totally negated the League of Nations mandate awarded to post war Britain. The attempt to justify modern history based upon Biblical “prophecy”, merits no response whatsoever because neither ‘daughter religion’, either rhetoric has ever defined from the Torah the key term ‘prophet’.


    Yet people confuse the nature of the Jewish State and how it came to be reestablished in 1948. The global community did not create Israel as a safe haven for Jews after the Holocaust; it voted to reestablish the Jewish homeland years before the Holocaust. Further, Zionists do not aspire for a Greater Israel from “the Nile to the Euphrates” the way anti-Semites at the United Nations claim; they want to live, pray and have autonomy in their small patch of the world promised to them by God.


    The ‘global community’ did not fight the Israeli Independence War. Europe, the US, and the USSR maintained neutrality during that war. Jewish leaders who directed Jewish defenses against Arab invasions of the newly declared Jewish State, lived their lives as secular non religious Jews. The 1948 Independence War shares nothing in common with the Xtian Crusades.


    The relevance of the Holocaust to Israel today is about underscoring the absolute imperative of Israel’s security, which means ensuring that the country’s neighbors cannot threaten it.


    Nonsense. The Shoah emphatically proves the utter depravity and barbarism of the defiled European soul. Europe has abandoned the Xtian faith, their God died long ago. Hitler and his evil minions based their criminal barbarism upon ever repeated Church slanders, ghetto imprisonment war crimes against humanity, torture, and murder of Jews. No European Court, to this day, has ever condemned Church immorality throughout the Ages spanning over 2000 years of cruelty and oppression.

    Justice – a concept which lies outside of European consciousness – actively entails fair compensation for damages. Only post WW2 defeated Germany, did the Allied victors agree to punish Germany and force it to pay some form of compensations for the Nazi war crimes which resulted in the violent torture and murder of 75% of European Jewry in less than 4 years.

    A bit more history of corrupt vile European barbarity and proof that their God has died long ago: based upon a poem written by T. S. Eliot -‘ Murder in the Cathedral.

    Where is Becket, the traitor to the King?
    Where is Becket, the meddling priest?
    Come down Daniel to the lions’ den,
    Come down Daniel for the mark of the beast.

    Are you washed in the blood of the Lamb?
    Are you marked with the mark of the beast?

    Come down Daniel to the lions’ den,
    Come down Daniel and join in the feast.

    Where is Becket the Cheapside brat?
    Where is Becket the faithless priest?
    Come down Daniel to the lions’ den,
    Come down Daniel and join in the feast.

    In 1532 Henry VIII broke with Rome and proclaimed himself the head of the Anglican church. Henry VIII, during the Protestant Reformation, desecrated Becket’s shrine, destroyed his bones, and ordered that all mention of his name cease. The Protestant Reformation began in 1517. The Catholic Church started its Counter-Reformation in 1545. These conflicts culminated in the Thirty Years’ War (1618–1648), which devastated Germany and killed one-third of its population, a mortality rate twice that of World War I.

    In 1517, Martin Luther nailed his Ninety-five Theses upon the church doors. It took only two months for the ideas expressed in his revolt to spread throughout Europe. The newly developed printing press overwhelmed the abilities of Holy Roman Emperor Charles V and the papacy to conceal and revoke Luther’s rejection of the Church in Rome. In 1524–1525 peasants rose in revolt across southern and western Germany. Luther condemned the peasants and that revolt ended with the slaughter of those peasants by both Lutheran and Catholic armies.

    Calvinism emerged in Geneva in the 1540s, preserved from its Catholic neighbors chiefly by Bern’s military strength. (Zurich, Bern and Glarus did not have treaties among themselves and were linked to each other only through the original cantons). Genevan Calvinism fused with the reformation of Zurich and northern Switzerland, which had been led by Zwingli and Heinrich Bullinger, to produce what became known as Reformed (with a capital R) Protestantism. Calvinism qualifies in some ways as a confession faith made for war. This “movie” rated R faiths, viewed the Catholic religion, specifically the Papacy, as the antichrist.

    The extraordinary extent, duration, bitterness, and bloodiness of the wars that raged across France, the Low Countries, the British Isles, and Germany in the 90 years after 1560, all stems from strikingly evil competing theologies of faith. In 1572 with a targeted group of assassinations, Catholic mob violence, comparable to pogroms, directed against the Huguenots (French Calvinist Protestants). A leopard doesn’t change its spots, and an apple never falls far from its tree. The genetic inherited nature of European cruelty and barbarism merits nothing but utter contempt.

    Paris August 1572, some 3,000 Huguenots slaughtered, and probably another 7,000 more slain in a dozen massacres that followed in provincial cities across France. Periodically from 1612 to 1629. English, German, Scottish, Dutch, and Swiss troops aided the Huguenots; Spanish, Italian, German, and Swiss troops aided the Catholics.

    By the seventeenth century the R rated Church effectively ruled as the state church of the Netherlands; the Reformed agenda drove national policy. This meant that foreign Reformed communities aided their fellow Calvinists. Sebastian I of Portugal, his 1578 “crusade” against Muslims in Morocco ruined Portugal. Emperor Ferdinand II, the Holy Roman emperor of Bohemia, and of Hungary, his policies brought about the Thirty Years’ War—“Europe’s tragedy.”

    A war so destructive of both human life and property that it probably qualifies as the greatest disaster to affect Europe between the Black Death and the First World War. Confessional divisions eventually helped to spawn the British civil wars that began in 1640 and lasted from 1641 to 1651, wreaking destruction across the whole of the British Isles. This era of religious debauchery culminated in the Cromwell ‘Round Heads’ Civil War. In 1653 Cromwell dismissed the Rump Parliament by force. This conflict started a completely different round of State imposed oppression and rule. And serves as validation of Nietzsche’s philosophy that the Xtian God is dead.

    Deicide, as expressed through the Gospels, does it command mussar? The Church chose theology over mussar. None the less, an interpretation of the Deicide Gospel story, it teaches a restatement\elaboration of the Cain and Abel first murder. Those who pursue violence and murder they kill God just as depicted in the slaughter and cross Gospel story.

    Those who honor the sermon on the mount, they witness the resurrection from the dead of Jesus their God. Da’at and t’shuva, upon these two wheels drives Divine Chariot mysticism. Blessing and Curse. The curse – Deicide guilt upon all generations of baptized believers – this Torah curse clings to all who pursue cruel violence, oppression and criminal murder. Those generations, one and all, guilty of Deicide, on par with and similar too, the plot to murder the Jesus messiah rebel who lead a revolt against Oral Torah based halacha, as told in the Gospel accounts. As the Reformation witnessed a rebellion against the mother faith, so too the religion repressed through the New Testament depicts a similar event during the closing days of the 2nd Jewish Commonwealth under Roman tyranny.

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