I’ve wanted to write this for a while, but I haven’t been able to put it all into words. And I doubt I will be able to now, but hey, I’m giving it a shot. 😉 I actually wrote part of this back in March when my family was out on an errand and I was all by myself in the house, listening to Les Miserables songs and sipping a steaming cup of tea. Since then, it has just been sitting in my drafts folder and I haven’t published it. Why? I’m not really sure. 😂 Anyway, here it is. Don’t blame me if it’s terrible.
Actually, you should blame me…since I wrote it….XD
Last year, butterflies became my motto. They represented hope, innocents, life and healing for me. I literally drew them everywhere. I have sketchbooks that have pages and pages of oddly shaped butterflies. (Some were crying, some were bleeding, some were flying, others were just really weird and abstract. XD)
I would also take pens and draw them on my wrists or my hands. During January and February, I drew sooo many of them. They took me from a state of unrest to a semi-calm place where I could gather my thoughts and have a semi-clear mind. When I wanted to write ugly, angry words on myself, I choose to cling to God and take my pens and write hope on my arms. I didn’t believe it necessarily, but I needed to see it staring up at me from my skin. I needed to know that there was something beyond pain and darkness. I needed something to hold onto and even though I was angry with God, he was the one that I needed desperately.
And more recently, snowflakes have also become another symbol in my life. I realized that we have a lot in common with snowflakes. We are both exquisitely designed by a loving Creator. We are both unique; not one of us is the same as another! We are both beautiful and delicate at heart. And we are both so fragile and we are “but a breath”. I’ve been struck by how very short life can be. Just like a snowflake, this life doesn’t last forever. It can be so very fleeting. It is important to make good use of this time that we have been gifted on this earth. We should value every moment as if it is our last and live for God with all that we are.
Anyway, I wanted to say something different, but this is the direction that my brain went today. 🙂 Have a wonderful day, people, and remember snowflakes & butterflies. ❤ Remember that you are beautifully made, loved and found by the One who will never leave you, no matter how awful this life becomes. Nothing you can do can stop his love or make you less valuable to him.